Peace

It's been a hard couple of days.

Yesterday Sam was so tired and in so much pain. It was awful for me to see him like that. I felt so helpless. Please, let me take the ouchie away!

It was hard for Josh too. Sam recently got some glasses so he's had a bit of attention, now, he's got this cast and he's getting some attention. Josh is such a good big brother and he seems so grown up it's hard to remember he is only 5. I've been trying to show Josh some extra love too. Both the boys got new Monster Trucks yesterday. I spent some time playing with him on the PlayStation. And even let him stay up 15 minutes later than usual.

By the end of the day I was emotionally spent. Most of the day I felt as if I were on the verge of tears. After Sam went to bed, Rich got me all sorted out with a glass of wine, my book and then he cooked me dinner. I was so tired by bed time I just fell into bed and slept like a rock.

Today things are looking up. Rich went to the office today.

Sam is still getting used to his cast, but his mood is much brighter today. Still, it's an adjustment for us both. He wants to play, but it's difficult for him to get around. I want to "mother" him to death, and he keeps pushing me way...."leave me alone, Mommy!"

We even managed to get some sticker books at Costco. He wanted some pizza so we split a slice of Costco Pizza (yum).

Now he's sleeping.

I'm sitting in the living room. It's just started to rain. The only noise is the occasional cough from the baby monitor and the sound of rain drops on the back deck.

I can tell, things are getting better.